As I lay in bed tonight I've been reflecting on this night ten years ago. It was the last time I spoke with my mom. It was so normal, so warm and happy, so comfortable.
"I love you, goodnight."
I was so secure in that love, so confident in myself because of it. How grateful I am to have been born of goodly parents, who gave me so much love. Through that love came confidence, testimony, trust, independence, security, and the ability to become Annie. Just Annie, and know that it is enough.
"I love you too, mom. We'll talk in the morning."
I have the weakest stomach when it comes to smells. SO bad. Tonight I was getting into the car and saw dog droppings in the yard. I gagged for like two minutes. (I'm going to be bad at growing babies).
"Of all the things I love about you, your gag reflex might be my favorite." ~Kayla
I was starting to be recognized when I went into the bank. Then one day I arrived at the counter and one of the managers was at the counter. He wanted to be all professional and call to verify every check I had over 25,000. I stood there forever thinking, "doesn't he know who I am?" I know, I'm that girl now. He wasn't very nice and I could tell you the entire story here, but my fingers are still taped together and typing is hard #firstworldproblems, I know.
Anyway, When I made it back to the office I told the boss men I didn't like how I was treated. A call was made and now every time I walk in they greet me by name and I get the royal treatment. There is one teller in particular who makes extra strides with me and we like to chat and laugh together. I may have developed a small crush on him.
So obviously I was trying to facebook stalk him. I tried finding him by looking up his branch. I was hoping that maybe someone with his first named would have liked the branch and then I'd be able to figure out who he was and stalk him.
I laughed out loud when I saw this. No one likes Wells Fargo, that seems about right.
I finally found him yesterday and Sam and I stalked him. He is perfect: LDS, likes the Institute at the U, Profile picture with his adorable mom, picture of him sailing. Guys he is probably the love of my life. UNTIL. I saw that he returned from his mission in 2012. He is a baby. So there go all my hopes and dreams.
Time to find a new bank boyfriend. I wonder if Chase has anyone for me?
- Let’s Celebrate that I am home now.
- 40 days without killing a co-worker.
- 4 days until the weekend.
- You only gained 2 pounds this week.
- Happy three day weekend.
- Because you aren't on peopleofwalmart.com.
- You can still walk up the stairs w/o being short of breath.
- It’s not ding-dongs.
- Survived Monday.
- Spring has sprung.
- I’m a lovely person.
- Happy cake day.
- Let them eat cake
- Diet starts Monday.
- Lay off me I’m Starving.
"We'll get you a new one."
Ummm.... I'm thinking like a flip phone.
"Go down to Verizon on your lunch and pick out a phone, I don't care what it is. Keep it under $1,000."
*At the Verizon Store*
Me: Tell me why I would want an iphone?
Verizon Guy: Well if you want to be cool like your friends.
Me: What is the difference between the Samsung S5 and S4?
VG: Well the S5 has some really cool fitness features.
Me: Do I LOOK like I am into fitness?
VG: Well.... Maybe you want to start.... this would make it easy.
Me: Does it show me how to find the best egg roll in town?
Me: I don't like any of these cases you brought out. They are all icky, got any cute ones?
VG: Define cute?
Me: Like maybe they have a fireman on the back... or a picture of Luke Bryan!
VG: Well what I could do is get out my paint set and we could see what we could whip up for you.
But seriously guys. I got a brand new S5 yesterday because I work for the best guys in the world. That was no waste of money. He just bought himself one darn loyal employee. Everyone wants to work here.
Today I got this message from a mutual friend via Google chat:
Wade wanted me to tell you the following:
- He thinks you're really pretty
- his dog faked a pregnancy again (he hates it when she does that)
- he thought of you on mothers day
- that he was so busy helping his dad with his mothers day gifts that he forgot to get his mom anything
- he bought a new cologne, it smells good and he can't wait to wear it all the days.
- He has something for you from Japan
- and thank you god bless!
Well two nights ago Kyle A and myself found ourselves at another event.
Kyle: "Uh I think those are your favorite cookies on that table."
Kyle: "Those cookies you love I think they have them on that table."
ME: "Ruby Snaps?! Where?!" as I shove my dinner leftovers in to his hands
Kyle: "You can only have one!" he calls out to me as I run across the room like a crazy girl
Me: "I'll do what I want! AND THEY ARE THE GOOD ONES!!!!"
Kyle: "Seriously you only get one."
Me: "and the one you aren't eating, wait.... These aren't Ruby Snaps!"
*10 minutes later*
Me: "Is it ok to throw half a cookie away in front of a homeless man? Part of me feels that it's wrong, but would it be insulting to offer him a half eaten cookie?"
You see I was cleaning the basement,
and listening to the beach boys on my phone.
I had it in the pocket of my hoodie,
and I was MAYBE dancing.
My phone fell out and landed on the tile floor.
I picked it up and went back to dancing.
Then it fell out again.
I mean maybe I was dancing....
The second time I picked it up I noticed that the screen was shattered.
Not cracked, SHATTERED!!!
But still playing Good Vibrations!
My phone has it's priorities.
*Willie Says Jersey is Campbell's Soup! Of Course it is! And Coke is obviously down there in AL.
- Temple attendance
- Walking around the neighborhood
- Meeting new people
- Taking classes
- Exploring my city
- Going on culinary adventures
- Planning camping/fishing trips
- Writing a cookbook
- Being more productive at work
- Writing genuine hand written letters
- Talking face to face with real people
- Really preparing my primary lessons
- Eating better and making it all from scratch.
- Concerts in the park
- Calling home
- Gallery Strolls
- Reading in the hammock
- Keeping my room clean
- Intensive scripture study
I bought this book while Kayla and I were exploring a boutique at 9th and 9th called Hip and Humble.
It has a lot of great ideas and we are doing them!
I am still blogging (obviously). I will still instagram. Follow both and hopefully you will notice the changes in myself that I already have. Text me your address and I'll write you a letter. Seriously.
I have already noticed a difference in my energy levels, my relationship with my savior, my general happiness, my gratitude, and my creativity.
P.S. The other night Kyle D and I went for a walk through the neighborhood. He would change our route as he saw trees that he thought might smell good. I noticed last night that my entire neighborhood just smells like spring.
I didn't defriend anyone. I am simply trying to be a better friend to myself, and in the end a better friend to all of you.
I had felt for awhile, 6 months or so, Dave might remember better, that something in my life needed to change. I felt stagnant and I felt that I wasn't truly appreciated in my job. I felt that no matter how hard I tried they were always going to see me as a glorified secretary, because that was my original position. I very much loved the people I worked with and I miss some of them desperately.
The day before Thanksgiving I was at work late trying to update inventory for one of my online retails before cyber Monday. My boss called with a request, I felt stressed out and was already staying late. I asked if it could wait until Monday and it became a fight. Again I love my boss, but communication had of recently come to a stand still and I left for the break in tears. I determined that if on Monday he apologized I would stay, If he brought up the incident at all I was looking for a new job.
What they didn't know was the week before I had interviewed with the engineering firm Kyle worked for. The pay was twice as much as what I was making and they had interviewed a lot of people and I had been on top until they hired their last interviewee, a former CEO. Weird, but I will conceded that I didn't have THOSE skills. But what I did come away with was that it shouldn't be hard to find another job. There was an engineering firm that had wanted me, I had impressed all 4 of the principles of the company and I was confident.
Monday came and I was given an official warning for my attitude. Kyle helped me put together a resume that night and I went over and we applied for every job opening on KSL we could find.
Me: This one is in Park City
Kyle: Apply for it.
Me: This one is the same pay I'm making now
Kyle: Apply for it
Me: Could I manage an animal hospital?
Kyle: Apply for it
The thought was the more things I applied for the greater opportunity Heavenly Father had to give me the best fit. I struggled. What if I don't deserve the blessings that I am asking for? How can I say Heavenly Father please help me find a job I will love, for a stable company, when I didn't read my scriptures last night? Silly maybe, I had my doubts but also felt oddly full of faith. I had done what I could.
I was called the next day for an interview with Northstar Builders. I went in and the interview went horribly. I mean really horribly. At the engineering firm I left thinking that they loved me and I had that job. Which they did, and I almost had. When I left the builders I knew I didn't have a chance.
They called me on my back to work. "We forgot to ask you a question. What is your benefit package like right now?" I knew they were putting an offer together for me. They offered me the job the next morning. I didn't stop to pray about it, I didn't think twice. I went in and quit. I was touched when the owner hugged me and said "I have never had an employee that will be as hard to loose as you are." He offered to work out of the office more to keep an eye on how I was treated. He offered to talk to me about more money, that he really didn't want to pay and he had already given me a 15% raise just months earlier. In that moment, all of a sudden it was a hard decision. I realized what I was giving up. I had made friendships, and built trust and I was going to miss that place.
The last piece to fall into place was where to live. You see my roommate was getting married and I kind of hated our apartment and didn't want to live there. Also the new office was super far east in Salt Lake and not close to any freeways so commuting was not going to be my favorite all the way into Davis County everyday. I turned again to KSL and nothing felt right. I finally found one I thought I really liked. The landlord called to set things up with me "And your roommate is John, is that going to be a problem for you?" Back to square one. That's when my good friend Kayla texted me. We have a spot for you in our house.
The house is less than a mile from my office. The rent is so cheap, like basically free. The neighborhood is lovely. It is a home, so I can have my grill and hammock and garden. I love my ward and my neighbor Pete who keeps an eye on us.
Oh and the new job is more that I could hope for. We build high end custom homes and I am the manager. I am treated with respect and as an equal. "Let's go to lunch and discuss this." I don't get left out anymore. And I still get advice about my personal life. In my last job it was more the advice of a tender father. In this job it is "Annie you need to get your *stuff* together." Which is also truth.
Heavenly Father's got this. When I stop resisting change and let Him take over He always amazes me with what he can do with my life.
Apparently when you delete pictures from google+ it also deletes them everywhere else they appear in google.... Like on your blog. So my blog looks a little disheveled right now. I'll fix it. I promise. I also need to add some people to the Cast of Characters tab... So you know who Amanda is.
For now just know she is a new bestie, and I am corrupting her in all the best ways.
Last night Kyle and I went to Smash Burger for dinner. I ordered the smash club and made an Uncle Jesse reference that fell flat with the server.
"Like from Full House."
"Yeah that was WAY before my time."
*once server is out of ear shot*
"Seriously? The Cosby Show was before my time but I still get the references!"
"The Cosby Show WAS your time!"
"No it was on in the 80s. I wasn't watching sitcoms as a toddler!"
"But it ended in the 90s, you were watching TV when you were ten weren't you?"
"Yeah... Full House and Dr. Quinn. Which both ended in the late 90s."
"Right. Probably before that kid was born."
"Am I that old? I feel like the general public should get Full House references no matter how old they are."
I needed to take a Flat Stanley picture to mail back to my brother's kindergarten class.
I can't believe I get to live here.
I told him I wasn't wearing makeup.
Well maybe a little lipstick...
But I was not prepared.
He refused to attempt to make me laugh
So I laughed at his grumpiness.
I love his grumpiness.
He is a total phony though.
He is really lovely.
But I am 30.
So I guess it's ok.
Life is good.
Anyway... One of my favorite things is to use Tinder for him on his phone. I pull it up and deny all the girls who aren't wearing enough clothes, or I don't deam to be his type, or that are trying too hard. It is fun for us. The other night he was on a different site where you answer like a zillion questions and it gives you your top matches based on how you answer then shows you a percentage.
We signed me up mostly because I wanted to see if it would match me up with my bestie.
Kyle: So 16% Enemies huh?
Me: That seems low.
Ha. I just like my Kyle a lot. Seriously.
One more thing... for Kate...
Moral of the story. I deleted my account. Kyle really is the greatest thing on there. Why he isn't the hottie of the online dating world I don't know but I already *have him. So no dating site needed.
P.S. These guys need to be more original. Almost every single message I received said something about my smile and called me angel. They obviously don't know me too well. Seriously.
*By HAVE I mean I have access to his stellar friendship... Unless he is on a hot date.