Pros and Cons of having a dog

*When she sits on your blueberry crumb cheesecake
*When she eats your brand new very most favorite sunglasses

*When she saves you from eating a third piece of cheesecake by sitting on it

It is a good thing she is cute...

My head and my heart!

I was listening to an old old song today in the car.

Heart ,don't fall now
If you do I might never bring you back around
Heart take it slow, don't let her know.
If you'll be on your guard when she reaches out
Oh I'm counting on you, not to fall apart
Heart, don't fall now.
~Sawyer Brown, Heart Don't Fall Now

At first I was thinking man this guy has multiple personalities. One talking to the other trying to convince him not to fall. Then I started to think how we are all like this. At least I am. How many times has my head had to have a little talk with my heart or even the other way around. While they both do a great job of guiding my life and helping me to make decisions they often both give me very different advice.

I then started thinking about this in terms of relationships. Mainly, because that is an area where they both have a lot of say on how things go. For example we have all been in those relationships that just feel right and you can't get enough of them. You feel like you are in love and yet the entire time you brain is saying "What are you thinking? This won't ever work long term. Danger Will Robinson! Danger!" But what the heck you say to yourself we are in love and love conquers all. Like my heart or my head have any idea what "in love" truly is or how much work it involves, but that is a blog for another time.

Then there are those relationships where logically everything makes sense. He maybe even fits perfectly into that list you made when you were 12 that said he had to be a surfer/rock star with a nice car, sexy name, cool accent, nice hair, and love all the names you already had picked out for your kids. Yeah that guy. You are dating that guy and he is not only all those things but he is also temple worthy, honors his priesthood, and remembers the name of the puppy you grew up with. He is like Gilbert, and Mr. Darcy, and cookie monster all rolled into one... and he wants you! He wants to marry you and have babies with you and go to Ireland on your honeymoon. And no matter how hard you try you just don't feel anything for him. You are sitting there saying "Come on heart, what the heck are you doing? Here he is... we prayed him here... maybe you could kick it into gear!" and to be fair you really wish you did love him.

So do we pick which one is more important and hitch our wagons to their star? No! Please no! So how do you pick? I'm not going to. I have every hope that someone will come along who will make both my head and my heart happy. I also have every reason to believe that whoever it is will probably surprise both. So I'll end here and leave you with the song that interrupted this lovely train of thought. Sometimes I can't believe how my Ipod always pick the perfect song!

Enjoy! I have left over Thai food calling my name...

I like blue eyes, hers are green
Not like the woman of my dreams
And her hair's not quite as long as I had planned
Five foot three isn't tall
She's not the girl I pictured at all
In those paint by number fantasies I've had

No, it wasn't at first sight
But the moment I looked twice
I saw the woman I was born to love
Her laughter fills my soul
And when I hold her I don't wanna let go
When it comes to her I can't get enough

So it took me by complete surprise
When my heart got lost in those deep green eyes
She's not at all what I was looking for
She's more
~Andy Griggs, She's More


Understanding the male mind II

So as I said earlier My friend Colin and I had a little catch up session this morning. During this conversation he listed off all the perks of being married. He however, forgot the one I am looking forward to the most... No more dating.

Let's see here. There is a guy I went out with maybe three times. He is super nice, and funny and we always have a good time. Anyway he moved away and he texts me probably three times a day with some version of "what's up?" or "How are you?" or something like this. I always text back and tell him what is up or how I am. Or I use to because he has never once responded to those texts. His response is simply a new "what's up?" text a few hours later. How do you respond to that? So I stopped trying to.

Then there is a guy who has hinted around at asking me out for awhile now. The sad thing is I think it would probably be a good match, but there is no follow through, thus making me wonder how serious he was about it in the first place. I find myself making up all kinds of reasons in my head for why he doesn't follow through.

I don't want to go into too much detail about my dating life here because well something has to still be private. Let's just say that boys may think we are confusing but I find them just as hard to understand. What I would love is if a guy who was interested just told me he was. Then I could say some version of one of the following:

*I am totally flattered but I think we are good enough friends to know that an "us" wouldn't be the best option for either of us.

*Really? Let's see if we can find more time to spend together so we can give this a shot.

*Me too! What should we do about that?

*About time! I was starting to think my green light had burned out.

I just think it would be so much easier. The communication styles of men and women are just so different. I think honesty is the best policy. If a guy just said hey I am interested I could just say that i was or wasn't and we could get on with life. I can't wait to be done with dating.


So this morning I had the chance to catch up with an old friend. After Colin lectured me about not being married we started to reminisce about the old days. He said he really missed my stories So I promised to post one of my favorite ones about him.

So I had this friend/roommate in college, who had a crush on this guy who worked at the tire store in Sam's Club. She was way to scared to talk to him so we spent a few days walking really fast past the tire counter and giggling around corners. I know girls are crazy. But moving on. I got sick of her not doing anything about it so I wrote a naughty little love note and made her put it on his car. I signed it Escorpio. I got the name from a Spanish horoscope that was sitting in her car. Anyway even though we signed it with that name and drove my car to do it and i wrote it he still traced it back to her eventually.

This same friend had a dream about Colin's brother one night. She woke up from this dream with a total crush on the guy. So I again composed a note. I think this time I had my friend Amber write it down. So we drove down through their neighborhood and parked on the next street over, as we all had cars that could easily be identified as ours. As I remember it I was the driver and Amber the runner. I am not even sure if Miss Paula even knew we were doing it. HA HA and I think amber wore a trench coat. HA HA HA HA.

Anyway as Colin and his brother started to research where this note could have come from we started to leave them for more and more boys in the ward. It was a fun game. The funny thing is that boys started to claim to have gotten Escorpio notes,boys we never wrote notes for. So either there was a copy cat or some boys felt so left out that they had to pretend to be included.

Anyway a few months later Amber started dating Colin and she saw the note on their refrigerator. Colin seemed sad that he had been left out and was not worthy of a naughty love note. So a few nights later the whole posse loaded up in the car for another Escorpio note drop. Unfortunately it was apparently not as good as Dane's note and he still felt left out. Maybe that is one of the reasons Amber and Colin didn't make it. Ha Ha.

I learned this technique from my mom who use to leave my daddy naughty love notes on his car etc. One night when we were coming back from some late night thing on campus we saw a car belonging to the roommate of my crush. It was always better to do it when their car was somewhere other than at home. It's harder to trace back to you that way. Escorpio once again composed a little note. A few days later he asked me out and we actually had quite a few good times. I should come up with a new alias and start the tradish again.


Old school TV

With my new job I am alone in my office a lot so the radio is always on. The other morning the DJ had people call in with shows that they wished were still on or that they would re-do. People called in with all kinds of ideas. I have thought a lot about this and here is my list of shows I wish were still on TV:

the title character Gordon Shumway, an alien nicknamed ALF (for Alien Life Form)who crash lands in the garage of the suburban middle class Tanner family.

I have this show on DVD and it is so much funnier than I remember. I use ALF quotes frequently in everyday life. For example: "Gas it! No one's gonna want it!" or "I know my rights I watch people's court." or "I'll have her running trough the streets screaming your name. If the cops don't pick her up, she'll be yours."

Dr. Quinn:
The trials and adventures of a female doctor in a small wild west town.

Because who didn't watch this growing up? And who didn't love Sully?

A Comedy Series based in Manhattan about 6 young friends, in the struggle to find success and happiness in life.

Because even the reruns I have watched a thousand times are hilarious. My all time favorite episode is the thanksgiving episode with Brad Pitt when Rachel finds out Ross was in the I hate Rachel club.

C.O.W. Boys of Moo Mesa:
In this cartoon series a comet hits the mesa and the cattle take on human characteristics. The series focuses on trying to keep justice in the frontier territory. Helping out were a group of peacekeepers known as C.O.W. Boys, short for "Code of the West." Led by bull Marshal Moo Montana.

Who doesn't love a cartoon with cows riding cows? Plus I still hear that opening song in my head from time to time ♪...They're the real cowboys! Standing up for law and order and living by the code of the west♪

Unsolved Mysteries:
Real mysteries and crimes are reenacted and detailed in order to generate tips for solving them.

Best show ever made. End of story! UPDATE! Good news while writing this post I found out new episodes begin October 13th on spike!


The Cosby show
Perfect Strangers
Early Edition
Good Morning Miami
The Magnificent Seven
The Andy Griffith Show
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles

Okay I also love so many old British sitcoms I could do an entire post about just them:

Keeping Up Appearances
Are You Being Served
Are You Being Served Again (Grace and Favour)
Good Neighbors (The Good Life)
'allo 'allo
Black Adder (only the third one)

Like Brother Dale, the morning DJ, let me know what TV shows you wish were still running new episodes.


9 -16

Today I had to take my dog to the vet. She hasn't eaten since Thursday and I was really worried about her. I dropped her off and thought I would be just fine. But when they picked her up and took her off into the back I burst out into tears. I couldn't believe I had to leave her when I knew she would hurt and that I couldn't be there for her.

Maybe I am just extra sensitive today. About this time of day four years ago I was at work. I was having a marvelous day and only had a few hours of work left when I picked up my cell phone and realized I had something like 14 missed calls from home.
The voice mails where from my dad. How odd. He doesn't call.

Life changed in a matter of seconds.

Some people aren't anniversary people. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad if I hadn't needed to talk to mom so bad about my dog last night. I am an anniversary person. I spent the day completely reliving all of it. No matter how hard I try to think of other things I can't help but relive that day over and over again in my head.

A few weeks before mom died she was out visiting me in Utah and she lost a baby that we had all been so excited about. I sat with her that night while she kept saying over and over "I just want your daddy." One of the hardest things for me about imagining the crash in my mind is that I am sure that was the first thought that went through her mind. I know that in the few seconds of life she had left she thought to herself maybe even said out loud... "I just want your daddy."

Then she had to leave. She had to walk away from all of us. I couldn't help but think of that when I walked away from my puppy this afternoon. Even though I know it isn't even close to how she felt... having no choice but to leave us in the care of others.

Fortunately we have been told that mom has seen how our lives will turn out and that she is excited about it. I am sure that she wouldn't have left without knowing we would be okay. I am also sure a loving Heavenly Father wouldn't have asked her to do it without giving her some assurance that we would be okay.

Mom, we are okay. I almost feel guilty that I am as okay as I am. I know you already know that because I know that you are still involved in my life. You've seen my life and are excited about it. I hope that includes meeting a man I love and need as much as you do my daddy. Remember how I was promised I would be best friends with my parents throughout the eternities? I know that is true and I look forward to it. In the mean time if you could watch over my pupppy for me today...


Understanding the male mind

I totally love the two ladies in my new office. I am sad that the reason I have the job is because one of them is leaving. Yesterday we had a conversation that intrigued me...

All men think they are hot. One lady was talking about how her out of shape bald neighbor will sit on his porch with no shirt on and rub his stomach and wink at her from time to time. The theory being that no matter what a man looks like... HE thinks he looks good!

I was telling my friend Steph about this later at lunch and she said that her brother said that boys use themselves as a measure of all other boys hotness. They think they are at the top of the hotness scale so all other boys who look like them are also at the top. Thus boys who do not look like them must be less hot etc.

Girls do not judge their hotness in this way. In fact for many I think it is the opposite. They think they are the bottom and so other girls who look like them must not be hot or popular etc. Maybe the boys have the better idea... But I don't want to admit that here. At the very least boys are defiantly more fun to observe. Even at the zoo... The male animals are always prettier and more confident!


I am sick...

I am moving and starting a new job this week. So of course I am sick. That is just the way life works. That also means I have no creative juices with which to blog. So excuse me if I don't post for awhile.

P.S. I have started a bad habit of watching scary TV alone and scaring the begeezers out of myself. I need to stop that...

P.P.S Is there a correct way to spell begeezers?