Crashing His Party

*I am kind of freaking out right now.

*Is this a call you in the morning freak out or I need to leave dinner freak out?

*Tomorrow would be fine.

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This was the song on the radio.... ironically, and it got me thinking. 

The other day this song was on in my car and someone said “Is it bad that I don’t feel this way about my boyfriend?” Yikes girl.

We all need a drop everything friend. 

The Mother's Day Post

In the middle of the night, when I am thinking about things, I always come up with ideas I want to blog about. I'm getting better at realizing which ones I'll desperately want to delete first thing in the morning when I've come to my senses. So this will be short.

I still haven't decided if more stressful things just happen to me this time of year, or if I develop a mind set that allows normal things to feel more stressful. Either way I am feeling it.

I've been struggling lately with a few things that leave my heart aching and broken. It's a horrible cycle you know. An aching heart makes you need your mom. Then you become more aware that she isn't here. Then your heart aches all the more.

I really hate this holiday and I know I shouldn't. Everything on TV, in the stores, on billboards, in talks at church, are reminders of how important and essential moms are. It's like the world is screaming at me ”look what you don't have! Seriously everyone has one but you.” It's super sweet when people say ”come to family dinner with me, you can share mine.” But really it just makes it that much harder and all I'm hearing is ”come see how good i've got it.”

Sometimes I post these great things about how great she is. How I know she's mine forever. How I know The Lord is compensating me. How I know she is around me all the time. I've even had some really cool experiences lately in regard to that. But this time around, tonight, tomorrow even... I just feel an amazing horrible emptiness.

And that's ok.

Be Prepared

Is anyone else's day a little worse when you forget to wear earrings? 

I keep an emergency pair in my car just in case. 

A lady has to be prepared for all eventualities. 

A PSA

”If you are kissing a real life man on your couch and you aren't feeling even a fraction of the butterflies Mr. Thornton gives you at the end of North and South... it's probably not going to work out.” ~ Me.

I Said All of the Following...

at work this week....

"Stop right there, I am trying to smell you."

"I need a man in my office right NOW."

"If one more thing goes wrong today I am going to start crying."

(I actually laughed hysterically when something else went horribly wrong just a moment later.)

"It is a three Diet Coke kind of day."

"No that is not my lunch, those are snacks. Chubby girls need snacks at our desks!"

"Nothing says romance like a large to-go order of Carne Asada fries."

"Oh he is my sexy friend."

Let me just clarify a few things for you really fast. First of all... Betos' or Rancheritos, or Los Berto's, or whatever other "Beto's" you choose to attend will cost you about 4 dollars for more digestive issues and delicious carne asada than you can really handle.

On the other hand... Gourmandise will cost you about 8 dollars for a cookie that you will think is only okay and you have to eat with a fork and cloth napkin.

I was just thinking.... Dear internet that perhaps, someone looking up Beto's locations might not actually also like Gourmandise. They might be interested in a local donut shop, or the local Maverick convenience store.

Speaking of O.co

It look like our friend Bark has been purchasing some new hardware from me on site. Listen... Bark. You can totally order direct. We are basically family!