Ode to Jetta (sorry it's late)

I have a friend who goes by Jetta.
Whom against the couch company, has a vendetta.
If they knew what's best they'd stay in bed.
For tomorrow they'll report to one angry red head.

The lessons she teaches are top notch,
I find I never check my watch.
after others' we go home and chat
and wonder what the heck was that?

One day the game of soccer she tried,
but found her balanced misapplied.
She crazy busted up her knee,
now it's all fixed through surgery.

My Miss Jetta loves to run,
boat all weekend, and get too much sun.
in her left ear she hears no sound.
ask her how to lose a pound!

I had a few more verse I will confess,
but don't want my lines to cause distress.
I want our Jules to feel of worth.
on this the anniversary of her birth!


Confession Monday

I love to read dating advice books. My favorite one ever was this one. 

My favorite bit of advice from this book was to NEVER wear white stockings. NOT EVER! To never have chipped nail polish, or to use those awful scrunchies that were popular in the 90's. I find this kind of advice not only good but fasinating. However, while I love to read these books, I do not read them with the intent of improving my dating life or advancing my wedding day. I just find them facinating. HA! Maybe I should try to apply a thing or two. But since I hate dating, even the very idea of dating, I don't see any reason for intense application.


Confusion reigns at work once again

My printer frequently has errors pop up that keep the whole thing from functioning. The customer service people assocaited with said printer are useless as well as the owners manual on CD they left.

I have no idea what this means. But I hate to see what happens when the waste is full.

To My Michelle

Sometime you just love people so hard it hurts.

When Michelle decided to move to Utah immediately following High School and I had to wait until September and then attend different schools I SOBBED. I felt robbed, but it was the right thing for her and I am sure for me as well.

We never knew giggling, and laughing, and whispering about boys, the heartache we would both know in our futures. Since that time we have both dealt with tragedy. For her, it was the loss of her little boy very suddenly due to illness when he was 14 months old. As her little boy Sawyer is now approaching that same age she is having a very hard time. She posted recently on her blog apologizing for her grief and again talking about The Savior. Reading both I have I cried right along with her.

I was going to simply post this as a comment but I feel it is something we all need to hear. No one ever knows what to do or say to those who are grieving. Often words only make things worse. Maybe some of what she has written will help us all understand how to mourn with those who mourn.


I still cry. I still feel pain. I frequently feel as if others are judging me for not letting go. When others talk about the atonement taking ALL of their pain away I wonder what is wrong with me. Then I find I am angry because how dare they think it is as simple as that. Then I feel pity for them. They must not have known love like I have. I still have days when it is hard to get in my car, because what if I am next? I still panic when I have more than one missed call from home. What if I call back and my life changes in an instant again? What if next time the pain is too hard to bear? To let go of all the pain of missing her would be to let go of all the memories. To let go of the relationship that is eternal and I am still in such desperate need of. It is okay to hurt and to cry because it means you still love. It means our loved ones are not forgotten. For me when I miss my mom so bad that it brings tears it isn't because I don't believe in eternal families it is simply because I MISS HER. People talk of her being a part of our daily life still and that is great, and I am certain she is. But I don't get to be active participant in that relationship anymore. Has the Atonement healed me? Certainly, but I still feel a great loss. I take comfort not just in the example you have given of the Savior, but also in remembering the words and tears of President Hinckley in October General Conference as he talked of his recently departed wife. Or in my favorite talk of all time by Elder Wirthlin when he describes his own grief as "those days when the Universe itself seems shattered and the shards of our world lie scattered about us in pieces. We will all experience those broken times when it seems we can never be put together again." Never feel bad for grieving. Because to grieve is simply to love. Even those we look up to the most have tears and sadness at the memory of loved ones. Keep loving Michelle and with time you will be able to breathe again. In the mean time know that I pray for you and grieve with you.


Wanted: Friendly Customer Service

In the past month money has been very tight for me as I had a few unexpected expenses and lost my job.

*Post to follow about the blessing that is my new job. I think HF likes me.

I feel as though I have been very responsible and frugal during this time.

I have had to call a few companies and tell them payments may be a day or two late while I moved money around. T-Mobile was AMAZING! They told me I had a 7 year history with them and no late payments and I called before hand and it would be no problem at all. Not to worry. They even said they would put a hold on it and I could pay both payments the next month, if needed, with no penalty. I was in tears of gratitude when I got off the phone.

Capital One was also amazing. I called and asked the same thing. Just a few extra days while money cleared my checking account. No problem at all. They waved all associated fees and wished me luck.

I have had similar experience with Toyota, and my utilities. In the end my Capital One payment was the only one that I made even a day late.


Wells Fargo was a BEAST. I have had three accounts with them for almost 10 years, they told me there was ZERO room for leniency and listed off all the fees I would incur if my balance dropped even a penny below the allotted amount for my account (P.S. There are A LOT).  They told me it was my responsibility to be aware of ALL policies and fees and to plan for such. True Wells Freaking Fargo, True, I should read all of the fine print. I should plan better. I should have my savings account more accessible for emergencies. This is all true. But you are just plain mean. And where do you get the right to call me names? That's right the supervisor I talked to on the phone actually called me names. That's professional right? And for the record I was sweet the entire time, and I didn't cry.

So who has a bank or Credit Union they love? The one thing I like about Wells Fargo is that they are literally EVERYWHERE and I have my bank boyfriend at the Layton branch. I just want someone with customer friendly policies and associates. Does that even exist? Every other company I dealt with was more than simply reasonable, they were also kind and flexible.


I'm Happy

I don't have much to say because, well, life is just good.

I have a job I LOVE! It has quite the learning curve though and I really really want to be perfect at it now.

Katy does lots of crazy things that I can tease her about.

My ENTIRE family is coming out this weekend and then some of us are going to THE DIRT BAND concert!

I went for a long walk last night with friends and we came home singing at the top of our lungs.

Jake and I have discovered we have mad dancing skills when someone is playing the banjo.

I love grapes.