It's just a tad different from my other listed stations.
This is a change I can get behind.
Wednesday
Change
It's just a tad different from my other listed stations.
This is a change I can get behind.
Tuesday
Thankful
I have been extra needy the past week or two as I anticipated some big news and while I grew anxious for a lot of changes I see coming up in my near future. I love change, I really do. It is the not knowing just how much and when that I have been struggling with for a few weeks.
* I am grateful for Zac who can ALWAYS make me laugh.. and always has time even though he has NO time.
* I am grateful for Kate who tells me "at least you don't have three GIANT acne's like I do" and then snapchats me a picture of them.
* Jill who likes to talk quilt patterns, missing moms, and icky boys.
* Cameran who doesn't mince words and constantly reminds me of my worth, and where that worth should stem from.
* Sarah who checks up on me from all the way across the country, lets me know she loves me, and is a fabulous substitute mom for me.
* Kyle A who gives me the man logic straight talk, and doesn't take any of my excuses.
* Kyle D. who calms my heart, and offers to rescue me from any form of "monster" that may present itself.
* Lolly who lets me snuggle her baby while she whips up a delicious meal.
*The boss man who buys me a Diet Coke so I'll stop "sounding like an opera singer."
Thank you.
It is all up from here!
* I am grateful for Zac who can ALWAYS make me laugh.. and always has time even though he has NO time.
* I am grateful for Kate who tells me "at least you don't have three GIANT acne's like I do" and then snapchats me a picture of them.
* Jill who likes to talk quilt patterns, missing moms, and icky boys.
* Cameran who doesn't mince words and constantly reminds me of my worth, and where that worth should stem from.
* Sarah who checks up on me from all the way across the country, lets me know she loves me, and is a fabulous substitute mom for me.
* Kyle A who gives me the man logic straight talk, and doesn't take any of my excuses.
* Kyle D. who calms my heart, and offers to rescue me from any form of "monster" that may present itself.
* Lolly who lets me snuggle her baby while she whips up a delicious meal.
*The boss man who buys me a Diet Coke so I'll stop "sounding like an opera singer."
Thank you.
It is all up from here!
Monday
But...
I don't have an eating disorder,
but sometimes I struggle with my body image.
I have never had a man raise his hand to me,
but sometimes I let men effect my self worth.
I'm not depressed
but some days it's okay to be sad.
I don't have anxiety
but sometimes I worry.
I have good friends,
but sometimes I miss my mom desperately.
I'm not lonely,
but I hope for my maverick soon.
I am happy.
but it's okay for life to change.
I'm not lonely,
but I hope for my maverick soon.
I am happy.
but it's okay for life to change.
Friday
Halloween Confessions
I can't wear costumes. Seriously I can't do it. I feel ridiculous. I can create awesome costumes for other people. And last night when kiddos came to Kyle's house to trick or treat I was dying of the cuteness of those kiddos. Especially the little diver with his little scuba tank, OH. MY. HEAVENS.
* * * * *
Thursday morning I almost had the most embarrassing moment of MY ENTIRE LIFE. Seriously. I would never have been able to see any of my friends again. EVER. EVER! It is so bad that it is funny in my mind and I keep laughing at how close i was to disaster. I need to tell someone before it explodes inside me but I can't think of anyone I could tell and survive the embarrassment.... Wait.... Zac... Expect a call later.
* * * * *
I am doing something this week that is super scary. It is taking all the strength of my heart, and the patience of Dave to get me through it. More to come in a few days on this. If it ends of happening.... But it's happy news!
* * * * *
I gained half a pound yesterday... If it is because last night I had a Diet Coke and 3 popsicles for a late night snack.... I am not even sorry. Take that diet! Don't tell Dave.... They were the competition's popsicles. But if he made Grapefruit fruit bars there wouldn't be an issue.
* * * * *
I have reached a new weight loss goal... I have officially lost 20 pounds since the diet started this summer! Yeah for me. But now none of my clothes fit. They look big and baggy and are not flattering.
* * * * *
Dave and I almost, kinda of... went to the Howl last weekend. When my boss found out he said "Annie you are about a 1,000 years too old for that. Talk about a super senior." But I actually didn't feel awkward about it at all.
* * * * *
Yesterday I was getting ready for the day. I had purple eyeshadow on just like mom. I noticed then that I was wearing EXACTLY the kind of blue collared button-up shirt that she always wore, and that my current hair color is hers. I stopped at the mirror for a minute and caught my breath as I looked at my mom staring back at me. For that moment I felt beautiful and unstoppable.
* * * * *
Thursday morning I almost had the most embarrassing moment of MY ENTIRE LIFE. Seriously. I would never have been able to see any of my friends again. EVER. EVER! It is so bad that it is funny in my mind and I keep laughing at how close i was to disaster. I need to tell someone before it explodes inside me but I can't think of anyone I could tell and survive the embarrassment.... Wait.... Zac... Expect a call later.
* * * * *
I am doing something this week that is super scary. It is taking all the strength of my heart, and the patience of Dave to get me through it. More to come in a few days on this. If it ends of happening.... But it's happy news!
* * * * *
I gained half a pound yesterday... If it is because last night I had a Diet Coke and 3 popsicles for a late night snack.... I am not even sorry. Take that diet! Don't tell Dave.... They were the competition's popsicles. But if he made Grapefruit fruit bars there wouldn't be an issue.
* * * * *
I have reached a new weight loss goal... I have officially lost 20 pounds since the diet started this summer! Yeah for me. But now none of my clothes fit. They look big and baggy and are not flattering.
* * * * *
Dave and I almost, kinda of... went to the Howl last weekend. When my boss found out he said "Annie you are about a 1,000 years too old for that. Talk about a super senior." But I actually didn't feel awkward about it at all.
* * * * *
Yesterday I was getting ready for the day. I had purple eyeshadow on just like mom. I noticed then that I was wearing EXACTLY the kind of blue collared button-up shirt that she always wore, and that my current hair color is hers. I stopped at the mirror for a minute and caught my breath as I looked at my mom staring back at me. For that moment I felt beautiful and unstoppable.
Wednesday
Gender Based Shopping
Me: I did something naughty today.
David: What did you do?
Me: I bought new boots.
David: Like for the rain?
Me: No
David: For fishing?
Me: Nope. I have two pairs of wellies already for fishing.
David: What did you gets boots for then?
Me: Well... To be cute!
David: ...
* * * * * * * *
David: So I bought new tools today
Me: Oh really what?
David: A sledge hammer and an axe!
Me: Oh for what project?
David: Nothing specific.
Me: So why did you buy them?
David: To be a man!
Monday
The Warehouse Boys
J: Annie, are you listening to the Little Mermaid soundtrack?
Me:No, I'm listening to Tom Petty. That is uh.... coming from the warehouse.
J: ...
Me:Those boys! Seriously they kill me.
* * * * *
Me: Why is there always a Disney princess song on when I come back here?
J: Don't flatter yourself Annie, we don't play them just for you.
Me: So you play them for who? You guys?
J: I just meant... You aren't the warehouse princess or anything.
Me: Except that I am.
Me:No, I'm listening to Tom Petty. That is uh.... coming from the warehouse.
J: ...
Me:Those boys! Seriously they kill me.
* * * * *
Me: Why is there always a Disney princess song on when I come back here?
J: Don't flatter yourself Annie, we don't play them just for you.
Me: So you play them for who? You guys?
J: I just meant... You aren't the warehouse princess or anything.
Me: Except that I am.
Saturday
The Proposal
Yuck...
I have a friend who very recently became engaged. I am super happy for him. She is super cute and sweet, and very faithful. I like her. He was telling me all about the proposal and the whole time I was uncomfortable with how mushy it was. Finally I said something to the effect of
"Oh my heavens this is too much sap for me. I can't even handle it, you have to stop!"
J: Whatever! You would love it if it was you.
A: Actually I wouldn't, sappiness makes me uncomfortable
J: I don't believe you
A: Seriously.
J: So what are you looking for? A proposal at the Maverick?
A: Actually yeah that would be fine. Who could say no to a proposal and a Mayonado?
Here are some places we thought of that would be acceptable unto me, after long break room deliberations:
*Bear World
*A Husker game
*The Maverick
*The landfill (okay maybe not there)
*camping
*fishing
*road trip
*bed of a pickup
My favorite story is my brother's story. He was just laying next to her one night, outside looking at the stars and it just came out. "Will you marry me?"
no planning, no rose petals, just looking over at her and thinking this is perfect and I can't imagine my life without her... and then out it comes "marry me." Now that is romance.
I have a friend who very recently became engaged. I am super happy for him. She is super cute and sweet, and very faithful. I like her. He was telling me all about the proposal and the whole time I was uncomfortable with how mushy it was. Finally I said something to the effect of
"Oh my heavens this is too much sap for me. I can't even handle it, you have to stop!"
J: Whatever! You would love it if it was you.
A: Actually I wouldn't, sappiness makes me uncomfortable
J: I don't believe you
A: Seriously.
J: So what are you looking for? A proposal at the Maverick?
A: Actually yeah that would be fine. Who could say no to a proposal and a Mayonado?
Here are some places we thought of that would be acceptable unto me, after long break room deliberations:
*Bear World
*A Husker game
*The Maverick
*The landfill (okay maybe not there)
*camping
*fishing
*road trip
*bed of a pickup
My favorite story is my brother's story. He was just laying next to her one night, outside looking at the stars and it just came out. "Will you marry me?"
no planning, no rose petals, just looking over at her and thinking this is perfect and I can't imagine my life without her... and then out it comes "marry me." Now that is romance.
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